I'm a Mommy

My Mom called me the other day and said that she had been looking at my blog. She told me, "I learned a lot of new things about you and how you think, how come you don't talk like you write?" All I can say is that I've never had the gift of gab but I do enjoy writing. I have journals full with details of events that have happened. I guess that is why I like having a blog so much. Because I hope to keep it and print pages to share with my kids later on in their lives. I try hard to express myself to them so that they know me and feel my love for them.
Sometimes I just feel so strange having two kids. I remember when Bianca was born how weird it was that I was being called a Mother. I mean I still have a folder full of Garbage Pail kids and wear Airwalks.
Tonight Bianca kissed me before bed and said, "Goodnight Mommy, I love you." She doesn't say that very often, or maybe think to say it. I suppose she may be a little like me. But I got really emotional when she said it. If I think about it, my kids and I are together pretty much 24/7 right now and so I do make an impact in their lives. Some days I forget the importance of being a Mother. Of teaching my children, of playing with them and of listening to them. And believe me right now Bianca has a lot to say! Wyatt is also starting to make a run for me when he has a problem or loses a ball. He will come get me and babble his baby words and then take me to the problem so I can fix it. I realize how important communication is. I'm a Mommy and am a better person for it. My kids teach me so much. Some days, ok most, I am just trying to get through the day without one of my kids having a meltdown or breaking a bone. But some days like today I am grateful for the small things and for the time I have to spend with these little ones. Eric keeps telling me that there is another one waiting to come to our family. I can't really imagine that now but maybe someday. For now, I am happy to be a Mommy to my two little ones. At least for today.(: