My Kindergarten Girl

After getting over the flu Bianca made it to her first day of kindergarten! She was very excited. We had a little bus incident where she forgot to get off of the bus at her stop and I freaked out. It was quite dramatic so the second day I drove her, that's when I snapped these shots. She has never been big on doing anything with her hair but this day she wanted me to put it in a pony tail AND wear a head band, then I knew she was super excited.



I love this picture. This was taken at the steps to her school where I dropped her off. She was so happy to go to the "big kid school".


I wasn't too concerned about her the first day. When she attended preschool she did great the first week, then the honeymoon was over, and getting her to go most days after that was a struggle. So the whole going to Kindergarten every day routine made me a little anxious. When the dreaded moment arrived (after 2 days of going) and she told me she wanted to "take a day off" I explained to her that that wasn't an option. I hate that it's not an option.

I get a little sick in the stomach when I think about her having to do things she doesn't want to do. She's my baby girl and want things to be fun and easy for her. I don't want her to stress, or experience hard things.....But then I thought about Heavenly Father. How does he do it, he sends his children down to earth knowing some of the trials they will face. I can't imagine he would have an easy time doing that either, so why does he allow us to come? Because he knows we need it to grow and progress and ultimately to be truly happy. I also thought about my life and how I do things everyday that I don't want to do, how I've had to do some really hard things that I didn't want to do but I made it through and learned a lot and they made me stronger and more confident in my own abilities, and in knowing I can trust in the Lord to help me. I've already seen Bianca ask God for help with hard things and I love that she does that. And she wouldn't be doing that if she didn't have any hard things to face. Ultimately I know it's for the best, it's still hard.

This whole school thing is a transition. And I think it's been more of one for me than her. She's doing great. She's taking the bus again, and tells me everyday that she had a fun time at school. I miss her when she's gone, I don't tell her that because I don't want her to worry about my feelings. I just think she's still so little, and she's gone for a while every day now and next year it will be all day. I'm feeling a bit of a loss. That's just how it goes, I had forgotten how much time children spend away from home, having my little ones with me 24/7 for the last 5 years. I'm very proud of Bianca and her determination to go to school, even though I know sometimes she doesn't feel like it. I'm glad that she gets to have this experience and learn and grow. I am confident that she will be a great student and make a lot of friends. She is now my Kindergarten Girl even though she'll secretly always be my baby girl.