Happy Birthday to My Girl.

Today is Bianca's 4th birthday. And I really can't believe how big she is getting. She is the love of my life and brings so much joy to our family. She is truly a kind and happy little girl. She loves life and her family.
We call her our "herder". She loves to be loved and if we ever have a group, big or even just the 4 of us in the house she likes to get everyone in one room to be together. One thing I think is so neat about her is how she not only wants others to love her, but she wants them to love and appreciate each other. She'll get a bunch of people together and get them talking to each other. She has a way of connecting people. And then she'll move on to the next group. She makes sure everyone gets equal kisses and hugs before bed. She takes care of her brother and gives him random kisses and hugs.







She loves to sing and she is trying to learn to speak and sing in Spanish right now. At bedtime Eric or I will sing her a song or two. Lately she's been putting in requests for me to sing them in Spanish. Luckily I remember some words since she likes us to sing hymns. So she sings them in Spanish after me, or at least makes up words that aren't English. (:
Her favorite song from when she was about 1 is "Lead Kindly Light". She has a 6th sense and is very observant. I could never fool her. She can read me like a book. She has a way of looking through me so even if I have a happy face on, she might ask me what's wrong.

She gets very attached to things. For example we just traded our Jeep for another car and she got emotional about it. Eric told her we could still come and visit the Jeep sometime and that was the only way we could get the tears to stop. Then on the way home she said to me, "Mommy, I wonder if the house will like our new car?" (:
She is stubborn and she knows what she wants. She does not give up.
When I found out we were having a girl when I was pregnant with her I have to admit I was nervous. I'm not much of a girly girl (I know, hard to believe). And I just didn't know how I could handle one. I thought that somehowI wouldn't be able to meet her needs or that I would let her down. From the moment I saw her that feeling went away. She looked at me then and now with complete trust and love. She's a very special person to me. Not only as my daughter, but just for who she is. I feel so blessed and so grateful to be her Mommy. She's everything I could have ever hoped for and more.
My birthday wish for her is that she will continue to be a strong individual. To know and trust in what she believes in. To know how much we love her and that we would do anything for her. I pray she will continue to bring out the best in others and be sensitive to their needs but that she will also have a good sense of balance and take good care of herself. That she might have a good sense of humor and know to rely on her family and on Heavenly Father when she faces trials in her life. I know so many people who are afraid to have kids because they have had rough lives and don't want to bring someone into the world who may have to face those same kinds of challenges. To you I would say it is scary, but I have faith in my little girl. And I have faith in God that he is watching over her. And that every second I've had with her has made any trial (and we've already had 1 major one) worth it. To think that she may not have come to our family at all would bring more pain than any trial that might befall us.
So I want to say to my baby girl, Happy Birthday butt butt, I love you forever.